One way I reinforce my inveterate functional Pelagianism is by allowing
remembrance of a past sin to bring me back into despondency and a
renewed plea for forgiveness every time it comes to mind.
The
trouble is that (normally) I've asked the Lord to forgive me in the wake
of the sin, yet when it comes to mind again I find myself crumpling
internally into yet another anguished prayer for forgiveness.
The
enemy loves it. He sees I'm not letting a decisive placing of that sin
under the blood of Christ settle the issue once and for all. Somehow I
allow myself to feel that the more often I ask for forgiveness, and the
greater the anguish, the more effectual the blood of Christ on my
behalf.
Which is itself works-righteousness. It's a denial that
the blood of Christ is enough. It's thinking: I need to help out
Christ's work by a super intense, repeated, pleading for that blood. The
very gospel application is a gospel denial. My mind pleads grace while
my heart self-atones.
Place it under the blood. Once. Then quit asking for forgiveness.
'. . . and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.' --Isaiah 53:6
Dane Ortlund
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